Unclear skies, unclearer veils,separating heartbeats from heartstops, a crossway of uneven peers, something so thinthat a scissor can cut without a close.I can extend hands and elbows through, the melting of the dead and the undead, I forget what my existence really is,something not well-defined by a pulse.

There should be a word for being with someone you do not trust. The near magic knowledge you have, like a déjà vu, that underneath some thin cover, there is a lie, some sort of already-known but unsaid betrayal. What is that word, that acceptance of untrust spent together.

After a year, I was exhausted of myself,Of synthetic hellos and light back patting hugs,Venomous compliments and backwards tongues.Come what may but I walked away,Walked into a solitude that hid behind treesLingered under beds with beady eyes.I entered into it knowing that this is its time,That separation and anxiety don’t have to be linked.I can…

Morning donut, drives through a marsh, SPF protected sun kissed skinMy caffeinated amygdala If that’s even a thingAlcohol supported slumber Sweet dreams, sweet dreamerSunbeams trapped in my eyelidsReleased with blinksGulps of salt water, pink birds, unprevented sunburnMy lungs clear themselvesAnd I breath like I haven’t before I haven’t before Ghost crab and a lookI go…

I can’t look you in the eyes,Because truthfully,I’d forgive you for anything,And sometimes we shouldn’t forgive,EverythingWatching skyscrapers run past the crescent moon,Something magical is alive tonight,As the lights pass by the windows,Any moment we could plunge underground.And this interlude doesn’t make me forgetThat I can’t lie that I trust you.It takes time, and I said…