I flipped it on its head
I see the darkness in me and everywhere
The nihilism and how everything will end
How pointless it seems
How alone it is
But I create my fantasy
Confront the demons 
Invite them out the dark
Then let them retreat again
Because holding on to them 
Does nothing 
I try my best
I improve
And I accept that there are realities 
That I wish I didn’t have to accept
And I love
Blinding myself and believing in stars
Believing there are colors all around
That only the good things lie ahead
But please
Don’t remind me of what truly 
Lies out there out of sight 
Don’t let me be lost in its depths