how long is the longest day, how long can I keep counting the life lessons, the repetitions and the ways I say I don't want to learn anymore, in front of my eyes the things I want switched on me, that the ambition and the motivation led me to a place I no longer wish for, I don't recognize the creations with my fingerprints left on them, but hope and boldness led me to the graveyard, a heart digging down into the fire, how this city keeps on moving faster and faster but nothing ever comes down this street, breezeless sitting in doldrums, planted into the pavement