I don’t feel that I am missing anything, and if I am I will gain it or it’ll come to me eventually. I have what I need in this place and in this time of my life. Unconvinced things will change, which is really alright by me now. This life I have isn’t something I feel anchored to, or like waiting for the shore after months at sea, it’s just an experience all the time. No matter how hurt, rough, melodramatic, unlively even unlovely it can seem sometimes. Because it’s also the opposite of all those things too at times.